hate my self

something i really felt the bad girls...and the worst saya selalu menyiayiakan orang-orang perhatian dengan saya...bahkan sampai membencinya entah mengapa menerima perhatian lebih membuat harga diriku terluka banyak.. i know i really freak,,actually people will be happy if get notice from people around us,,,but i felt so sad if people give me much notice... that's make me not have much friend... and the worst from me is i never know wha i want...i hate ado...i like alone but i don't like stay at home all day..really not clear.. i always negativ thinking with people around me though they are just wanna help me... moreover just for smile something i felt my selffestee injury,,,,padahal tidak ada seatu keugian jika kita senyum dengan orang..tpi tetap saja saya merasa sangat menyengkelkan....... i hate my self...:(